Life throws you curves!

I am the ultimate dog lover, and I love them almost as unconditionally as they love me. I say almost because I don't think a human will ever understand the loyalty of a dog's pure devotion. My dog Brodie and I have a special bond. I'm not sure if it's because as an SPCA special he understands that he was once saved. But he really did save me. I adopted him two months after losing my precious Rosie who passed away suddenly in her 13th year. Brodie is now nine and a half and I expected to have him at least until double digits. But alas he is in kidney failure. Not eating much, we don't expect him to last too long and I certainly don't want him to suffer. He spent two days in the hospital on IV hoping a boosting of his fluids might perk up his appetite but it's hasn't helped much. He's very quiet, resting most of the time. So we will do what we can for him in the next few days. Dr. Debbie says we will know when it is time, but in my heart it will never be so. However, I will do what I need to do unselfishly, but not without tears and regret. I love my "Brode" and I dread the future without him. I know Bailey does too... he senses something with his "brother". Life gets tough sometimes, especially when it's combined with the holidays... odd that Rosie passed away over Christmas. I don't know what to hope for... so I am just going to pray. God will take care of the rest.

UPDATE
As soon as I finished this blog I glanced down at Brodie laying on a blanket at my feet and I knew I was keeping him going for my sake not his. God answered my prayer... and I knew what I had to do. I called our vet who was my neighbour growing up and a very close friend of my sister... she's part of the "Devon family". Would she come to the house? Yes without hesitation and so she did. Brodie passed away quietly and peacefully around noon today. I'm crying as I write this but in my heart I know I made the sacrifice of time for him... because I love him... always!